Tuesday, November 30, 2004 // 11:30 PM

i am sorry for not remembering you, in the polite kind of way, the kind of way that acknowledges that there is nothing to say between us except for pleasantries and small talk.

i dont know. do people still think im some sort of wildchild? because i thought i was over giving people the impression that i'm some sort of badass, i'm not actually any more or less paikia then the average person (i think), i mean, just because i dont think anything of alcohol or smoking, does that go to indicate that i am some sort of reverse-convert, is it natural that i get this... feeling like i am so much filthier than everyone else in the room?

because everything conflicts with my very much deliberate policy of being open to things. and i dont even know if that much even applies to me anymore, it is not natural to be completely unprejudiced, it is so much of a farce that i am not going to bother with it anymore.

i suppose my Now Red hair doesnt really help things. what i really want to know is, what you will say of me, to see me the next time, since you've already decided what kind of person i should be?

joel said i look like the girl from fifth element, so i want to watch fifth element. i forsee myself not getting a quarter of what i have planned for this holiday done.

somebody go out with me and watch Allthemoviesiwanttowatch before i go to hawaii!

what the woman on the telly said: i mean, how many friends do i have that i can throw away like banana peel?

grad night was fun because fifteen was the funkiest class there, and funky always gets to me more than high-heeled elegance. but the dj should still be shot. i like dressing up like that because it is space for Role-Play, it is one night that allows me to be completely uncharacteristic (as well as completely characteristic) without the whole repercussions routine.

my finest hour today was relearning how to play pingpong.

i am a sort of predictable wildcard, i am theatrical or i am completely versatile and silmultaneously completely wooden, my motto for the holiday so far: now to procrastinate away all the things i have ever wanted to do!