just tell me that im tired. im playing sad song after sad song, trying to find a feeling that matches this one that i'm feeling right now: bitter but curled up with a book, sad without being depressed or self destructive,
i dont belive in the simplicity of the human experience, or at least perhaps not mine. maybe it's something that i have been chasing all the time, a transparent little ghost that evades me at every opportunity.
nothing good is going to come out of my mouth right now so i should just not say anything.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
