Sunday, March 06, 2005 // 12:27 AM

just to not give you all that credit. when i think about you i also think about how i dont want to be so completely dogmatic, even about myself, how i dont want to have to work so hard. to have already decided something about yourself or any given situation. im out for input and im out for diversification.

im out for diversification. i am ella and i am obsessed with media consumption.

of course my experiences make perfect sense to me. what defines a text, exactly, what quantifies legitimate writing? if i write something so completely bizarre that only i and another person in the entire world can understand it. what would you call it. who qualifies good literature, good poetry. literature at all.

you're not loaded anymore, and i am loving that. loving that loving that loving that.