Thursday, April 21, 2005 // 8:13 PM

i need to stop falling asleep when i'm supposed to be studying. i woke up with the to the words necessary facade. i dont think i want to be here right now, it is a mood thing, it is something that swings. oh i wouldnt say i am moody in itself, i would say, sometimes i am just Too Neurotic To Function. sometimes i translate that and say that there is something wrong with me, but it is nothing more than a careless excuse, on my part. take some responsibility for how you are screwing yourself up.

this culture of victimhood. everyone subscribes without knowing its name. my face is red, if not my hands, you know what i mean.

and huiwen has a nice nick, or usually has nice nicks, "you brighten my life like a polysterene hat".