Saturday, April 09, 2005 // 10:56 PM

you know. it doesnt matter how nice a name you give it, or how smoothly you can rationalize it away.

if you're not ashamed of being a poseur, then i dont think there's anything wrong with it. nobody wants to argue this out with me, not even daryl, and that says alot. i dont know, could i imagine a less theatrical version of myself, one somewhat less flamboyant? it is not like that is me, every moment of the day. but it is me every once in a while, and it is a part of me that i would not sacrifice to the public opinion, just for the sake of principle. principle is overated, i think, or there is a hedonist in me, somewhere deep inside. i dont know, why should i have to figh it? because we all know how much fun it brings, to be absolutely brain dead.

this makes me think of how marvin said, too tired to be anyone but yourself.

i think i have a strange personal philosophy.