Friday, May 27, 2005 // 12:01 AM

and i, i have become a silent frame. i used to slip in and out easy with this kind of crowd, i am recalling postgradnight card games and alcohol induced laughter with people who ran this show. i am unable to talk rubbish anymore, my standards have skyrocketed or i dont feel the need to make friendly conversation. looking back now i wonder what i could ever have had to say to these people, people if nothing else certainly more high profile. i wont deny change but i've always been like this, whatever people like michael would call it from way back when. i dont understand, or i do; maybe it is a mood thing, or i am closing the doors and windows one by one in on my self.

the only people i feel close to normal around are my team mates.

hello little miss uncalled-for, the least you could do is be less unabashed. i'm not angry or hurt because it is just so trivial, but certainly my impression of you has gone down the toilet.

today must be a bad day, because given a few free hours i can think of nothing else but sleep.