Wednesday, June 22, 2005 // 12:14 AM

muchos caffeine, to accompany my slow steps. my mopeyness has been laughed away, because janice chen must be the single funniest person i know. heehee.

i need to stop being so obnoxious, obnoxious. because i am at the end of the day still a shitty musician, and because ultimately and most importantly things are not self serving at all. or not supposed to be. i need to learn to be gracious because people have been so to me, without which i would not have come as far as i have, would not be in this position i am right now. which at very least is not nothing. today i prayed really hard that i would be able to play the piano properly again, it is just the feeling of being right or wrong, when my fingers are on the keys.

i remember what was about you being artificial. but i know that doesnt make it okay, the way that i acted.