ella is determined to grow up. ella is determined to be more responsible, less childishly wrapped up in herself. ella needs to stop self-indulging, ever so excessively, to stop running away from everything. to cut the cord on the melodramatics.
i think michelle is/was so very good for me because she was/is just so different. i think. i think i am enough of my kind for me, i think i am going to consistently need new perspective to keep my eyes from glazing over.
i think i have always needed someone-or-some-reason to keep my feet on the ground.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
