Friday, July 08, 2005 // 12:15 AM

i thought about you today, how i once said that you were/are So Screwed Up. you with your personal philosophy, what you seem to want all the time, what you seem to really really believe in. but. but just because i am a different kind of screwed up, doesnt mean that im a single bit better than you, in any way at all.

and just because my idea of Perfection is perhaps less than conventional, doesnt mean that it is any more realistic than any other miracle dream, any one else's castle in the sky.

i should read more, because it'd make me feel like i'm improving my mind, or something. for me this means media consumption, and not reading like the economist or something; i dont think i will ever be that kind of person. i hate politics and current affairs, i am not that kind of humanz student. i refuse to be taken in such perpetual seriousness, i wield my comic books and my frivolity against the branding of academia.

im learning to be selfless or at least, less self-obsessed.

and i think i have really nice team mates :) which i think is better news than all the gold medals in the world.