ostensible nothingness, stop. stop everything in its tracks. i dont think i can help it, i think i can help it. i dont like believing otherwise, everything, everything is cowardice. because, because i've stopped trying to beat you down with a stick.
how can i say what i said about you and still be feeling the way i do about you right now. right now right now right now.
i need to get used to doing the whole School Thing. i keep saying that it is unbearable, no it is bearable but why the heck am i bearing it? what am i bearing it for? i want my idea of a perfect world, right here right now.
crabby. if i had a mini grand piano in my house maybe i would be substantially less crabby.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
