hello emotion, saying nothing. i need to tell someone i need to reveal that i have emotions, that i have been pretending, that my real self is all this is so very very much more. because i bleed as hard and as fast as you would, even if pride or whatever it is called is stopping me from acknowledging it. hello because i want to be in control but i am not, i am not, i am not.
i wish i felt nothing.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
