really. im terrified, have you ever seen me terrified? i'm not good at showing it, i'm only good at making the snappy furtive movements, meaningless in themselves, meant to distract. watch me and my awkwardness, trying to beat things down with a stick.
i can't believe i blushed today, what's wrong with me. i can't remember the last time i have blushed, it is such a female kind of emotion, sometimes i think. how could i be anything but tell-tale, you know my head is an open book.
by the way, i feel cheated, i think you should know. these endless mindgames, i can do without.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
