Thursday, September 15, 2005 // 11:14 PM

i'm half determined to study real hard from now on, to disprove this idea that i cant study (oh no please don't be right joel). i used to be so good at studying! what happened man. but if i do well for promos it's going to be the whole oh so smart don't study still can do well thing which is not true; and if i do badly then it's going to be well duh you didn't study. hello. show me a way out of this please.

what i wrote for the gep survey:
I loved my Secondary School experience because of the people that made it up. I don't think I will ever be able to relate to a community as closely as I did with the NY GEP. There's a comfort and closeness that comes from going through all sorts of crap together, from having seen each other's good and bad sides. NY GEP didn't make me feel judged, or like I had to live up to something, I was just allowed to be, to experiment, to move in whatever direction I wanted. The differences between people were accepted pretty easily I think, and most people have a identity, something they were particularly known for, and so it was a pretty interesting experience. We did try to include people for most things, it felt like a real community, a community that wanted to be a community. And well yes we had all sorts of trouble while we were still there, but in retrospect, I think most of us do look back on the experience with a great fondness. I wouldn't undo this experience for anything in the world.