i'm doubting myself like crazy right now. sigh. why so stupid harh, why so childish and petty and retarded. what am i doing here what am i trying to do, let me. remove myself, cleanly, from the picture.
me, me and all my Decision Making. sigh. oh well, looks like everything's just been fruitless exercise. my own Stupidity is smarter and more subtle than i might ever have thought.
should i just inure myself to it, thicken my skin. since i just. can't seem to beat myself.
somehow it seems like we're just a bunch of overgrown children.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
