Saturday, October 15, 2005 // 10:16 PM

jump out of your own head

i. i would just like to apologize to everyone who i've treated like shit, in the last one week. i think i've done that alot, actually, Treating People Like Shit. i reread the letter i wrote to christl and i'm starting to think i shouldn't write letters when i'm upset, because they just come out so. sigh. but. i'm going to do it anyway, i have. three more people to write to and i am going to stop thinking about myself stop it stop it stop it. i'm. so completely self obsessed and i don't know how i'm going to climb out of this but i'm going to try. i'm going to fulfil all my freaking responsibilities i'm determined to stop this. this involves. not being left alone with my thoughts, and so, so i am blasting loud and unemotive music, i am going to cycle over to fong's right now right now right now.