Saturday, January 07, 2006 // 11:35 PM

it does bother me that i'm a needy female. kevin says females generally are, but, sigh.

i want to have an unconditional love for myself. i also want to stop saying things, but i don't know, i never know, do i. today daryl said two things to me, one was when was the last time you felt like jumping off a building and the second was are you ever not bothered, when was the last time you were unbothered. RAWR.

i think i'm in trouble for the three essays due. there's still hssrp presentation, there's still meetings with grace and delia and bible study, in the next week. the net has been useless absolutely in terms of research, and my southeast asia notes have lost themselves in the mess that is my life, so i don't have anything to fall back on, so i can't escape the content slogging, like i've been doing for the last every history essays. i don't even know how to content slog, i have one week to find out. help, i think i am heading for something painful.