Thursday, February 09, 2006 // 12:34 AM

i've allowed myself no work tonight. dinner with classmates was a good time, muchly.

i've given up msn for two weeks, and i really do think i might survive. this is some sort of attempt to get my work done, done and behind me, and to break some sort of addiction, it has been at least six years running.

i think i really do want a dog. i walked into a pet shop that day just because, and there were these golden retriever puppies costing something like 1.5k. the place smelt absolutely terrible but you know i come so close to falling in love, you don't care about these things. and i didn't allow myself to really look at them for long, because suppose i'm rational enough to not nurse a desire that can't come close to being fulfilled. especially if you want to talk about falling in love with a particular one, this is an invitation to discontentment. but some day in my life, i'm going to get a dog.

today i stood at the fountain of wealth and thought about how it could be so perfect. if you scrapped the pounding music and those awful gaudy party lights. the wind blew a wall of water drops into my face, if i close my eyes, somehow it feels like i might drown. both glorious and terrifying. and looking at all the would you like to buy this advertising space signs, in their glass cases, i thought about how there will never be poetry on our mrts.