okay. i haven't been myself. i also don't know who myself, is, sometimes.
and i'm also very capable of being manipulative. i don't believe in it anymore, but. somehow it lingers at the tips of my fingers. and robs me of my self-respect.
this is not a moment of clarity. or honesty with self.
askew, you
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(giddy dreaming and amends-making and deprecating and feel-good wanting)
(i have made myself ea$ier to plea$e)
-a powerful moutain bike :(
-a pint of bailey's irish
-james; calvin and hobbbes comics
-a true chocolate eclair
-peanuts comics, foxtrot comics
-pearls before swine comics
just give me some good-feeling
-take music seriously
-dance
-(sincere) hugs, often
-less impersonal people to talk to
-honest and self-honest people to talk to
-a regular dose of live music
-to wander around cities in a foreign land
-giggling silliness
-gorgeous landscapes
