Sunday, August 06, 2006 // 12:27 AM

i wish i were playing for the entire service tomororw, and not just twenty minutes of congregational singing. it has nothing to do with the hymns, i don't like them any more than i ever have, it's just: i want to sit at the piano throughout the entire message. i like it there, in that cave, that hole in the wall. that's how i want to feel, safe and sound, sanctuaried.

actually, you feel safe, but then you get half a million complains after the service that you aren't sitting properly, or that the back of your pants is riding too low. or i do. and then you realise for however comfortably cocooned it is you feel, every eye is caught on your slightest move.

actually, what i want, is to sit in a semi darkness, and play, whether there are people in the sanctuary or not. i have a feeling i will be melancholic tomorrow, at least until i hit the afternoon.