Thursday, September 14, 2006 // 10:59 PM

I feel sane, this is precious. Maybe it's the fact that History and Lit have been good, that's made me feel somewhat less anxious. And the disasters of Monday and Tuesday have receded in my mind.

And I'm considering with newfound clarity what I have been and what I have done, the kind of person I have let myself be, lately. I'm left with the realisation of I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself; Some part of me wants to learn a lesson but there is. Something futile inside, I don't know.

I feel a bit stoical, like I am skirting around things, I don't know if that is a bad thing. There is so much I want to say but. But no words to contain them, no one to say it to. So, So I don't know, maybe I should just sit still and say nothing, and keep my thoughts in control.